pure frustration...

Man, it's been nearly 3 months since I've been paid and frustration has finally seized me. Today was the first time I've felt absolutely worthless since I stopped going to work nearly 2 months ago. At least until last weekend I had the JLPT test to study for. Since I've finished the test I've had nothing. The first two days went by, and I thought "hey, just take a little break." Well, I took a break and it was nice, watched some football, some TV, played some games and cruised the info-super-highway, but today it was more of the same. Fucking boring. I thought about recording an episode, but didn't (I'll do it tomorrow, promise). Did nothing. The worst part is that since I didn't teach so much over the past 2 weeks I really have no spending money at all, so even going out to grab my favorite sandwich or some canned coffee has been shelved. Just sitting in my room, waiting for something to fucking happen, and by "something" I mean of course for my previous employer to send me my fucking unemployment papers! God I'm getting frustrated. Good news is on the horizon as I have 3 classes over the next 3 days to get a little money in the pocket, and also I've got a Gotanda Christmas party (for some reason in Shibuya?) this weekend, so hopefully that'll take my mind of the despair for a bit. Also, according to law (not that VONA cares much about that), the aforementioned unemployment papers should be sent out within 10 days of the official bankruptcy which was on the 30th of November, meaning that I should receive them in the next 4-6 days. God I hope that I do... but that's not the end. At that point I can apply for my money... more waiting... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!! The waiting is really getting to me man! Hopefully by putting this up it'll at least get it off my mind a bit so that I can go back to relishing the hours and hours of time I have to kill. Here's to that dream!